CHIP~S!!!!<3

I'm exhausted.
Fucked up with life.
Yesterday performance...
then today again need go band.

I need to make a decision.
I have already gave up dancing this year starting.
The feeling in learning freestyle and bboy in Esplanade was DIFFERENT.
I missed it. Dancing make me feel excited like band and feel myself.
But yet. Band is so stressed. And i have do everything.
Look.
My mother's quitting her job soon.
If she quits. I gotta give up my CCA. Then maybe i look for a part time job.
Or i just gotta work hard and prove her my results.
Partly she quit because she worry my results.
Even after exam, I still study almost everynight. Partly its because my results not good.
I even gave up inhse dota...
But where the fuck are we suppose to get our source of income?
Dad? He fucked off from my life 14 years ago.
Chee bye. Im just a teenager.
This is a fucked up year.
And today is the "end of sec 3 life".

Maybe if i disappeared from this world.
My mother wont need to worry so much about me.
Im just a human wasting space on this Earth. Wasting resources yet providing no help.
Im just a faggot rotting in this world. When will God himself come down and cleanse me?